vengeance of an innocent gurl.

2011-05-08T15:27:00.018+08:00

Finally...

after 1 year and 20 days of not updating my blog,i am finally updating it with a new post..

haish....come to think of it,this blog died 1 yr ago because i was too lazy to update it...

so here it goes.....

today is Mother's Day....

but.......

it doesn't feel like it Mother's Day at all....

it sucks big time....

i have nowhere to turn to...

i can't turn to facebook to post my unhappiness...

or else,

my brothers will see it...

haish....come to think of it,

i really lead a very sad life.....not just sad,but in fact,

A PATHETIC LIFE...

it sucks big time...

one problem after the other...

seriously,just fuck my life....

all these yrs,i am like a guinea pig...

instead of my older brothers getting scolded for what they did,

i am the one getting all the blame...

it suck....

this morning when i woke up,

as usual,i check my facebook updates on my phone...

and i thought,"okay,i should help her out in the kitchen today..."

but in the end,when i came up to her if there is anything i could help,

she just ignored me...

and i was like............."speechless"

i was ready to help,and she ignored me....

and i began to wonder,did i do anything wrong the day before or what?..

"is it because i return home late?...but i returned before 11pm what??..."

haish...seriously,this is so unreasonable...

then when i started to use the com,

not even after 4-5 hrs of using the com,

she started nagging for no reason...

she started to say...

"why do i have a daughter like her??...so lazy...cannot be dependable...

must she do things if i ask her to do??..."

then she goes on...talking to herself...

"when i say something,she will rebut me...i say one sentence,she talk back 10 sentence..."

seriously when i hear that,it really hit me...

DAMN IT!...I HAVEN'T REALLY SAY A WORD THE MOMENT SHE STARTED NAGGING...

AND NOW,SHE IS ACCUSING ME A LOT OF THINGS...

WTH??...SERIOUSLY,FML!..

for all these while,she has began to accuse me of things which i really didn't do.

why must she do these to me??...

to make my life miserable?...is that it???...

to think of it also,for the past 17 years,i was never able to know what's in her mind...

i really don't understand her....

can someone tell me the answer?...

i really wanna know the answer...

sometimes,i really do envy my friends who have doting parents...

every mother's or father's day,they will like so happy celebrating...

but why me??...why do i have to go through this unhappiness??...

WHY???

up till now,i really don't have the answer...

is it because of me??...my character??...my attitude??...

but seriously...who can they blame?...

i followed them as i have their genes...

but again,i really don't understand...

my life sucks big time because of what i am going through...

now,i see all my friends facebook updates...

all happily celebrating mother's day...

while for me,i just get a scolding.....

FML....

haish...

can i be able to hold on?....

i'm beginning to have doubts....

i wanna cry but i am holding it in...

i don't wanna lose my tears just because of this....

i've cried tons of time because of this...

and i don't really wanna cry because of this...

everything seems to be so sucky to me...

i wanna talk to u...

but i don't have the courage to....

how do i get to talk to u??

when do i get the chance to talk to u??

all these question have been popping in mind the first time i started to like u....

ever since we graduated,

i didn't get the chance to see u at all...

the last time i saw u was only the result day....

and after that,no more...

all these while,

i've been missing u....

and u don't even know that...

all because,

u were really not aware of my feelings towards u....

i'm really scared that one day,

u will be really taken away by someone else....

and by then,i will totally regret not knowing u......

i'm really scared....

i have no one by my side...

to be able to share my unhappiness...

and i really wish that...

i have u by my side to listen to my stories...

but then again,..

u really don't know me in the first place...

this is life...

fates toying with our feelings...

should i talk to u??...

or should i wait for u to talk to me??...

seriously,i think our feeling are toying with us...

haish...

maybe,..

i should just wait...

to my friends,

who have been with me for the past few years....

i thank u for being my listening ear each time i have my difficulties..

thank u very much..

i appreciate it lots...

thanks you for understanding me all these while...

and putting up with my stupid character and attitude...

i know it must have been very sucky to put up with me...

with that,i would like to say sorry...

sorry for doing that to you...

i love you guys...

*my longest good friend of 9 yrs-Ateeqah♥♥♥♥♥

*my longest good friend of 9 yrs-Khatika♥♥♥♥♥

*my best friend of 6 yrs-Hanisah♥♥♥♥♥♥

*my best friend of 6 yrs- Fairuz♥♥♥♥♥♥

*my best friend of 5 yrs-Umairah♥♥♥♥♥♥

*my best friend of 4 yrs-Munawwarah♥♥♥♥♥♥

*my good friend of 4 yrs-Hazirah♥♥♥♥♥

*my good friend of 4 yrs-Afieqah♥♥♥♥♥

*my long lost good friend of 4 yrs-Fiyah♥♥♥♥

*my good younger brother of 5 yrs-Alex♥♥♥♥

*my good sis-in law of 5 yrs-Shi Wen♥♥♥♥

*my good friend of 3 yrs-Wan Si♥♥♥♥

*my good friend of 3 yrs-Alfred♥♥♥♥

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P.S: i am not a stalker...lols...

they are my friends..lol^.^

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2010-05-28T12:15:00.002+08:00

A belated birthday for me!!!
hahahahas...
2 days have passed....
first of all most,i would like to thank those who wished me happy birthday...
thank u soo much...i appreciate it a lots...((:
those who wished me by sms:-
-Afieqah
-Shi Wen [Fanny}
-Wan Si
-Eliza
-Hazirah
-Faii [who spam me 17 times.lols]

and via facebook friends,:-
-Ateeqah's mom[ the first one]
-Ms Soh
-Brian
-Karthik
-Nysa
-Huda
-Suhaila
-Afieqah
-Subwana [dunno who, but thank u]
-Hariza
-Stephen
-Kak lina [sis-in law 4]
-Michael
-Kak niza [sis-in-law 2]
-Chong Han
-Fiyah
-Istaman [dunno who, but thank u]
-Khatika
-Justine
-Ian [ the irritating guy.lols]
-Sonja
-Syahidah
-Normala
-Siti aka Shab [my niece]
-Sugar
-Alfred
-Samya
-Nantha
-Andy
-Diyana
-Salli
-Aahyya Papaya[dunno who,but thank u]
-Cherie
-Lydia
-Chong Han[2nd time]
-Eve
-Thet Htoo Zaw
-Shu Hui
-Jun Hao
-Ying Ying
-Meili
-Ismat
-Wawa[dearest]
-Izinie
-Stella
-Zastor[ bro's friend]
-Xiao Ting
-Jennifer Tay[ dunno hu,but thank u]
-Sohlihin
-Simon
-Erni
-Shirin
-Khairul[bro]
last but not least,-
-Atifah.

thank u soo much to all of those peeps i mentioned above,
hehehes...
thanks so much for ur wishes...((:
and to my best peeps,
wawa,maii,fanny,wansi,faii,sumitha and the rest,
thanks for the surprise party u gave...
hehehe
totally memorable..((:
hehehe..
the presents,-
-SHINee pencil case
-Kyuhyun photo card with wishes
- MBLAQ mirror
THANK U SO MUCH!!!...

i was hoping that u would wish me happy birthday....
but it does not seem to happen...
guess that it is not fate...
its okay...
i think i'm used to it...
having just one sided part of mine...
although there is a lot of things that have the same similarities,
i will now stop thinking much...
i will now start doing my own work....
i wouldnt want to bother bout my feelings for u...
i will cast it aside...
i will just take it to heart that,
we are not meant to be...
i will try my best to forget bout u..
though it is very hard...
now that i have totally fallen for u...
i will try my very best to forget bout u...
even if i will have to take step by step...

now that i'm taking my Os,
my top priority is to study hard...
no more bout love...
sick and tired of it already...
time to achieve my goal....
PASS MY O LEVEL WITH FLYING COLOUR!!!...
AND GET TO THE COURSE I LOVE THE MOST!!!!
thats it....
no more love...
time to study hard till the end of the year...
persevere all the way...

wooo...cant wait to get my hands on Super Junior 4th album!!!...
will be going to collect it on sun with wawa...
hehehe...as she will also be collecting her cds...
hehehehehsss...

Anyway HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!...

yesterday was a worse,bad,bloody-bad day.....

2010-05-01T08:58:00.002+08:00

Eyes swollen and voice became hoarse...
yesterday's incident........
if anything were to happen to her,
i might not be able to forgive myself.....
when she was crying in pain,i cant do anything except to cry....
i was so scared and panicked when she suddenly cry in pain...
as i watch her going into the ambulance,my tears kept rolling down my cheeks and
i find myself cant stop crying...
i then realise that i cant lose a best friend that has been with me for the last 5 yrs.....
i felt for instance that i have done great wrong to her....
being angry at her for stupid reasons....
being mean to her each time....
as i am writing this,my tears clogged inside my eyes ready to fall.....
i felt guilty because i have never been a very good friend and sister to her....
i wanted to thrashed everything out but there isnt anyone to become my listening ear...
as all this while,she has become my listening ear each time i face problems....
i cant imagine if i were to lose her.....
too distraught to say anything...
when my tears finally falls,
i kept recalling what happen...
i cant forget what had happen...
as even when i was listening to Super Junior Yesung-It has to be you....
tears kept rolling down my cheek...
totally heart-breaking......
teacher-Ms Eunice Lai and my friends...
kept consoling me...
it wasnt my fault...
but no matter what,
i have only myself to blame....

at last...........................

falling into deep sleep after crying in the day and night.....

waking up the next morning[which is today.]
eyes really swollen after all those crying....
thinking back what i have dreamt of....
3 days in a row....
i dreamt of him.....
AGAIN.....
each time i didnt talk about him the whole day,
i find myself dreaming of him....
whats wrong with me??....
he could already have the girl that he likes....
but i keep finding myself having one sided feelings for him....

i wanna thank our dear maths teacher Ms Eunice Lai,
my dear didi-Alex,
my dear wan si for lending me a shoulder to cry on,
and the rest who tried to console me yesterday....
thank you....
saranghae....

2009-12-26T14:41:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQkACrq33dU&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh+div-1r-6-HM
its been long time since i last posted sumthing...
hmm...i am also wondering wad makes me wanna post sumthing todae...
well...i've gotten my n level result,last week actually...
it was quite ok...
-eng-3
-maths-5
-humans-4
-science-5
-dnt-3
although the total points here is 20,it was deducted 2 points bcoz of my malay....
so now it is 18 points...i still have to wait for my malay o level result....
for my malay,i'm not really sure coz i've not yet gotten my result...
have to wait till next yr...i really hope i pass my malay as it will determine my overall result for n level....hmmm....just hope dat i cud carry on to sec 5...
welll actually the reason i'm posting sumthing todae was....
i was quite upset by the performance in music bank yesterdae...
super junior came out to perform with only 9 members....
-leeteuk,shindong,sungmin,eunhyuk,donghae,siwon,ryeowook n kyuhyun....
where's the rest of the 4 members??...-heechul,hankyung,kangin n kibum....
i'm wondering are they affected by hankyung's sudden termination of contract case??...
is dat it??...haish...
i'm sorry to my peeps hu are reading my blog...instead of writing bout my daily work,
i updated about kpop...soo sorry...
but i can understand dat kibum is not in the performance is bcoz of his acting schedule..
and kangin,is because he is suspended from activities because of involvement in police case...
but heechul??...why isnt he there...??
seriously,i do want to know the reason...
is it because of clash in schedules or affected by hankyung's case??...haish...
i'm actually wondering wad is actually wrong with kpop groups recently...
hmm....
anyway yesterday's music bank was empty without all 13 members performing....
but i wanna congratulate snsd on winning again,now for like 11 times??.for the song Gee??
hmm..anw congrats,although i wanted soo much to see suju winning it...
but wad can i do??...i still have to admit it...
for the year of 2009,snsd dominate the kpop scene with the song Gee...hmmm....
anw,all i wanted was not to see suju breaking up...NO WAY!!!...[CHOI!!!touchwood!!]
but i really miss the 13 of them....haish...
and i wanted to sae....SM PLEASE STOP ALL THIS!!!!!....
U'RE SERIOUSLY MAKING THE FANS ANGRY!!!!![including me,eventhough i'm not elf]
first it was dbsk[jaejoong,yoochun n junsu]...
second it was suju[hankyung]...
third it was rumours about snsd[hyoyeon]..(but i think its not true...)
HAISH....i'm wondering whats wrong with SM artist....haish....
anw,i dun wish to write anything further....hmm...
schools gonna open soon....left with a few more daes....
and if i'm gonna continue with sec 5,no more lacking behind...
must work hard fo o level....
atiqah,hwaiting!!!!....dun give up!!..((:
ok signing off!!...((:

2009-11-10T17:08:00.014+08:00

Frens Outing

Date:25 Nov 2009
Time:11am at boon lay mrt station[meeting place]
Location: those going knows.
Those going:
~Hazeerah
~Faii
~Lala
~Dee
~Wawa
~Afieqah
~Fiyah
~Badud
~Shima
~Maii[subject to change]
~Sha[subject to change]
~Putri[not going]
~Firashah[not going]
~others?...maybe..

Frens Contribution
~Fiyah- cake marble
~Maii-sandwiches[subject to change]
~Faii-drinks[subject to change]
~Dee-curry puff, kimbap[sushi rolls] and jelly
~Wawa-macaroni and secret recipe(:
~Haz-maggie mee((:
~Lala-Hotdogs and nuggets[all that is related]

Things to bring..
~Mat!
~Foods..[a must!]
~Tent?[subject to change]
~games!?[subject to change]
~others

p.s. peeps things can go wrong...anything i will update(:

updated on 11nov 8.44am
updated on 12nov 2.14pm
updated on 13nov 1.03pm
updated on 23nov 12.34pm

2009-07-25T17:23:00.002+08:00

annyeong...((:
hahaha...back to posting!!...haha
anw...been feeling bored the past few daes..
hahah...been feeling sick for the whole of last week..
from 13 to 19 july..MY GOD!!!!...
for the first time ever..i get 6 daes of mc!!!!.wa!!!!.
lols...actually i started feeling sick on mon,13 july..
jus ryte after bro's birthday...
wa..on mon my temp ran up till 38.0...believe it or not??..
haha...and on mon..after self study..went home..
guess wad..while walking home after alighting bus 99,
i walk wa...my walking was like in a zig zag line sia...
i walk like a drunkard person..hahaha..
somemore on the road..
hahaha..
reaching home,i msg sha..telling her that..
hahaha...after hearing my temp was 38..
she called me rite a way..
>sha:U GOT TO BE KIDDING ME SITI!!!???...
>siti:serious..no kidding...tak bedek kao langsung..
den she told me to go doc but refused..
hahaha...[u are such a stubborn gal,siti]lols...*laughs*
then still stubborn,i still went to skool the next day..hahaha...
actually mom told me in the morning dun go skool but den still go..
hahaha...almost reaching skool,saw afieqah walking to skool..
so wait for her den walk wit her..
>siti:fiqah..muker aku pucat ehk??..
>afieqah:uh uhk...kao sakit per??..
>siti:uh uhk...hehe..
>afieqah:abe sakit gik skola..aiyos..
>siti:*laughs*
reach class...sing national anthem,den temp checking..
guess wad!!!...38.3!!!!...
>siti:ms aisha!
>ms aisha:check again..
>siti:38.3..
>ms aisha:u go down..
>ernii:kao nyer temp brape??..
>siti:38.3..hahaha...bye guys!!!*laughs*
go down to the foyer den the staff check my temp using the scanner..
37.2..hahaha...
but then still have to sit inside..kana quarantine..haha..
went in..saw some other student..all junior..
I'M THE ONLY SEC 4 THERE!!!..WTH!!!!..
hahaha...at first 3 student were ask to go home..
hahaha...and i'm the last one to go...
>VP:atiqah,are u sick?
>siti:yups..
>VP:ok..uhm can u check ur temp?
>siti:[checking*]VP,my temp 38.4..
>VP:ok..[using the scanner...]37.6..
hahahaha...she touch my forehead..
>VP:wa..so hot..ok u go home..
hahahaha...go home!!!.wee~!!!!..lols.
went inside general office kol home..
cannot get thru...
then check temp again,37.0..
then the staff say,y does ur temp go up n down??..
then i laugh!!
hahaha...after 5 mins,go inside general office again..
kol home..bro pick up..
>siti:oi amek aku dari skola...
>bro:kao sakit per??..
>siti:hahaha..uh uh..suruh ayah datang..
>bro:haha..oii..ayah semput..ayah suruh aku amek kao..
>siti:okok...lincah..
5 mins later he came...go general office,sign then we go home..
hahahahaha...reach home at 9.15am..
hahaha..at noon..bro says he want go doctor...to get mc...
hahah...i tild him dat i'm following him..
he say ok...
den we both go out..at first go to the nearby clinic but havent open..
den bro suggest go poly..den ok la..
but i say i oso wanna take my specs..den ok la..
but we both go home take the receipt and oso take bro's ic..
den go out again to go j.e. take my specs first..den go poly...
reach poly,check temp..39.0[mine]38.3[bro]
hahahahaha...
den went to the outside building for register...
waet den go in...see doc..
because that my tag lost,the doc check my temp again..
now 38.7..hahaha...up n down...hahaha
den doc told me he's giving 6 daes mc..
WTH!!! 6 DAES!!!???..HAHAHA..
ook dats when my holidae starts..hahaha
no la..jus kidding..
sha msg me..when u coming back to skool??..
every1 miss u..hahaha..all of us bcome quiet when u didnt come..
hahaha...
see when i come,u guys find me very noisy but when i didnt come,u guys miss me..
aiyos...
ok den..on the following mon,went back to skool..
den yesterdae sumthin happen to me..wah bad luck sia..
in the morning,i was supposed to wake up at 6 and my alarm was set to 6am..
but one thing,it goes off at 5.20 am..
wad de..i dunno how to explain that..
den i woke up at 6..before i open the door,i look at the watch..6am exactly..
they i say normally,wah da kol 6??..
den when i open my room door,i heard sum1 say "da"..
i turned back n look at my room surrounding..no one at all...wth!
but when i look at my mom's room,she was praying and my dad was praying silently..
first bro was in his room n bro was still sleeping in his room..
who the hell wud that be??..walao..
den after finish bath,went back to my room,wah near the door was soo cold...
seriously..the thing is,i didnt even switch on my air con!!..
but it was soooo cold..then i realise dat tis "thing" is trying to disturb me..
but i ignored..hahaha..cant be bothered!!..hahaha..
then i n skool,while walking to class,i was walking with my head downwards..
den sudden,y sum1 bump into me...wah!!!..
i hit her forehead..and the next thing i noe,my front teeths bleed..walao...sway sia..
she didnt even say sorry to me..wth!!!..and i have a cut on my lips..sian man..
wah..atiqah was like u ok or not...
>atiqah:wah she didnt even say sorry..bastard sia..
but i wasnt my fault exactly,she was walking with looking upwards and she saw me..
but she still bump into me...summore didnt say sorry...
walao..i was soo pissed off dat i kept scolding vulgar..hahaha..pissed off man..
faii was like..ehk rilek uh..but i was like totally pissed off!!..
now,the cut on my lips is still there...WTH!!!
very happie to see 'him'..hahaha...((:
for one week didnt get to see him..very weird feeling..hehe..
ok dats about oll for my sick daes..
hahaha..
anw todae's activity,went to madrasah per normal..
got exam..finish can go home..
den me n bro went home..
while waetin for bus 99,we tok craps..
den one whole group of chinese guys come to the bus stop..
hahaha..
ok den mins later,bus 99 come..
ok i wanted to throw the bubble tea cup so i walk pass them..
den one of the friend say in chinese..
wa...u happie la..she taking the same bus...[already translated by me.]
but i'm not really sure whether the friend is directing at me or wad...
but i heard the guy,[the fren's fren,haha]say u shut up in chinese..
den when boarding the bus,the fren push the 'guy' infront of me..
den i abruptly stop..but he continued walking..hahaha..
den in the bus..walao dey oll so noisy sia..
although i'm hearing my mp3..wa..dey so loud sia...my god..
the mins later dey become quiet..lols..
den dey alight at boon lay shopping centre..
the 'guy' walk pass my seat but listening to mp3..using white headphone..
when he went down,he look at me..
i gave a slight smile and he smile back at me..
ah~~~...i melt on the spot..chey..hahaha...
p.s. he is sooooo cute!!!..hahaha...(:
p.s. dun think i dunno chinese ok..i do noe!!!..haha(:

ok la...dat is bout oll today..hahaha..
p.s. BEWARE OF KEROPOK NENEK!!!..hahaha..
p.s my room do have 'sumthing'..hahahahahahaha...lols

2009-06-25T16:55:00.003+08:00

hey hey...
lols..been a long tyme since i update..
hahaha..
sowie peeps..
anw skool's gonna reopen..
ah~~..none of the hw i've yet to do..
hahahaha...*opps*
the last week of the skool holiday is the only week i've get to rest..
wad de!!..
been to skool everyday since the beginning of the holiday..
now den i get my rest..
well,today is the dae ft island is coming to spore!!!...
aww...*when will super junior come???*
hahahahah...gosh i wish sj cud come for their 2nd asia tour!!!..
HOW I WISH ELFs spore CUD PLEAD DEM TO COME HERE!??..
hahaha...lols..heii..i'm just desperate!!..
hahah..
sowie guys..sowie elfs..
hahaha...but i really hope u guys cud plead dem seii..
haish...
anw went out with haz,wawa n putri on tues..
SHOP TILL WE DROP!!.
hahaha...no i'm kidding..
my pockets have hole on it...the money is gone!!.
hahaha...BANKRUPT!!!..
hahaha...
well,when we were going back to boon lay..
on the train...
hahahaha...funny story to us..
hahahahahahaha..i cant stop laughing!!..
hahahahahahahaha...
*WE TOOK THE WRONG TRAIN!!!!..*
hahahahaha...we almost went to pasir ris...
until wawa(i guess) realise dat we took the wrong train...
hahaha...we quickly alight at the next station..
hahaha...den we took the correct train..
hahahaha...gosh...
sumtimes..i do really wonder...
*am i a true singaporean??*
hahaha...without knowing which is which train..
hahahaha...haish..anw dat was wad happen to us on tues...
a weird experience yet fun..((:

a word of thanx to haz,putri n faii,
thanx for giving a pretty book with oll my fav idols pics in it..
hahaha..
thanx a lot for the burfdae present..
hahaha...
appreciate it lots...((:

one more thing..
i wanna wish super junior ryeowook[wookie],
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!!..
*opps..sorry his birthday is on the 21st of june..*
anw happie 22nd birthday!!..
oppa saranghae!!!

2009-06-07T18:52:00.003+08:00

today is the day which i mark when i first get to noe hym...
hehehe...
i was so happie dat i manage to be frens with hym...((:
thanx to shyda for her guidance...
shyda..thanx a lots...i wont forget how u help me...
hahaha...
hmm...get to be frens with hym tru msg...
hahaha...lols...((:
at first he seems like "jual mahal"...hahaha...
but den i realise he was just playing around...
i was outside at the moment...
and while reading the msg...
i smile like a stupid kid...
hahaha...
ppl around me looking at me with one kind of look...
hahahaha...
sorry la ppl...i cant help it...
hahaha...
hmm...really hope dat we can be frens...((:
hehe...ok la...
dats oll bout todae...
hahaha...
070609!!!!! hahaha...
ouh ya HAPPIE BURFDAE TO VYENNUS & DOMINIC!

2009-05-30T19:58:00.003+08:00

heyloo peeps..
sorry dat i didnt update...
i didnt switch on the com for de last few daes..
hahaha..
really sowie..
ouh ya..
bout my burfdae...
receive sum things from frens..
my bro gave me a webcam...
i was sooo happie..
hahaha..
lols..
anw i've fot nuttin to sae actually...
quite feeling down..
did quite badly for mid year exams..
bad report in the end...
haish...
DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!..
arh..
i dunno wads de hell is wrong wit me!!!!.
damn!!..
arh...
i hate the reality...
arh!!!!!!...
damn it...
but wadever..
now my purpose is to study...
for my...
O LEVEL MT ON MONDAY!!!.
FINISH UP MY DNT FOLIO WORK!!!.
AND ALSO MY PRESENTATION BOARD!!!!..
STUDY MY MATHS,SCIENCE N HUMANITIES!!!!...
dats my main concern now!!!..
haish...

anw i wud like to thank bro for the webcam present...
wawa for the cake..
sha for the suju file..
my frens for the burfdae card..((:
hahaha..
thanks a lots...
haha..
saranghae!!..

2009-05-26T21:18:00.003+08:00

happie 16th birthdae to miie!!!!..
hahaha...
i've turned 16!!..
hahaha..
da tue!!!..
lols...
anywae..jus wanna sae dat...
i will update tmr...maybe...
coz i've yet to upload the photos to my com..
sorry peeps...((:
anw...dis year quite good..
more ppl wished me happie burfdae..
staright to my face..
even ppl hu i rarely tok to..
hahahahahaha...
anw...thanx a lots..
btw to wawa dongsaeng...
kamsahamida...for the cute cake..((:
love it..
haha...
and to maii,sha,afiqah,wawa,ernii,fiyah,rongtat,stephen n mdm wahidah..
for giving me a burfdae card..
haha..
appreciate it lots..
haha...
i will upload the photos tmr..
if i'm free...((:
anw..dats bout all...((:

2009-05-24T17:10:00.003+08:00

yo wads up!!
hahas...
well... nuttin much..
hahas...
anw..as per normal....
go skool,come back from skool..
chey!!!..
haha..
anw...
yesterdae when to madrasah with bro..
as per normal...((:
well..after returning from madrasah and i was on the way to the interchange...
I SAW HIM!!!!..
hahaha...he cudnt have recognized me...
haha...
i was wearing tudung..
so...
hahaha...
ala wadever la..
haha..
hmm..last week had mock exam...
to be said for almost the entire week...
now my mind is full of malay stuff...
haha...
it will continue till i've taken my o levels mt...
haish...otak gue boleh jad giler dong...
hahaha....
ouh ya...
i've finished my dnt artefact...
now all i've to do now is to concentrate on my folio...
haish....
one more thing...
on fri...had interclass competition on various kind of sports..
my class competed on netball,basketball,volleyball n badminton...
((:
well...didnt do quite well on badminton n volleyball...
although volleyball we managed to clinched the 3rd spot...
i guess...i'm not dat sure...
but one thing for sure...
we clinched 2nd spot for basketball n netball!!!!..
WOOHOOO!!!..
hahaha...
everyone did their best till the very end....
good job everyone!!!...
hahaha...

ouh ya..
i wrote before dat i ordered the suju repackaged album ryte??..
i'e received it!!!..
yeah!!!!..
happie la seii..
first thing first...
i'd like to thank...
HAZ N FAII...
for collecting my album on behalf...
THANK YOU VERY MUCH...
LOVE U GUYS A LOTS...(:
haha...((:

ok dats bout oll i'm gonna sae todae...
missing him...(:

2009-05-17T14:06:00.004+08:00

miie holding baby nasha..((:
cute ryte??lols

heyloo...wads up..
hahah...
back to posting..
i guess...
haish...man...
too much to sae on regarding wad happen yesterdae...
hahas...simply too much...
hahas...
well..
as per normal went to madrasah....
on the bus...
man...i saw the person whom i was not supposed to meet...
DAMN IT!!!!!...
JEEZ...
i was like...telling bro....
wad a day is it...
haish...
but nvm...
why shud i care less??...
i've got nuttin to do with hym wad??!!!...
hahaha...lols...
ok den...after madrasah..
went home den get ready to go out...
to chalet!!...
hahaha...
hei...i'm not dere to enjoy ok...
cannot sae dat i didnt enjoy dere la...but...
ok i did...
but its just a celebration of my baby niece...
well...
happie advanced 1st birthday Nasha Saffiyah!!!..
hehehe...she's simply too cute...awww~~~
hahahas...
ok den...
celebrated her birthday...have fun n everything..
BUT!!!...
i didnt forget dat i have a mock exam on MON!!!!...
aahhhhhhhhhh....can die liao la...
arh........
nvm..wad to do??..
haish...
after dat..
went home with my 2nd bro in his car...
at 1230am...
wah...sleepy already...
fell asleep in his car til reaching...
haish...
hahaha...by the tyme reach home is already 1am...
gerekk kan??..
haha..
anw...enjoyed myself dere..
haha...

de may babies..
p.s.except for the one behind me..^_^
left 09 more daes to my birthday!!!..
woohoooo!!!..
haha..

2009-05-13T15:18:00.006+08:00

pic of us during the sports day...
haz,putri,faii,wawa,fiyah and me!!..^_^
hey hey... long tyme never post anything... hahaha.. any ways..been very busy with exam... wah~~...can die liao la... haha...
well..been missing hym the last few daes..
hahas..
during the weekends especially...
haish...
wad to do??..hahaha...
well...got hys number from shyda 4serve...
but really i dun dare to msg anything...
hahaha...futhermore...
MY PP8 LOW!!!!!...
hahas...so its difficult to msg..
hahah...
lets see..
its been 2 months since i top up..
HAHA...crazy rite??.
well...been trying to save up but.........
I CANT SEEM TO DO SO!!!!..
arh...damn...
each tyme save...
always have sumthing wan..
haish...like wad malay sae...da simpan..tap mesti ader ajer bende yg nak dibeli...
hahaha....well dats me...
the crazy nut SITI....
hahaha...lols...
anyways...i'm still being the korean fanatic person..
nuttin else...
haha...
ouh ya...suju's gonna release a repackaged album...
haha...of coz...i'm gonna buy it...
hahaha...
tis tyme...is with the additional of 4 songs...
makes a total of 16 songs together...
my!!!...one of the songs is written by RYEOWOOK!!!!..
hahaha...
cant waet to have the album...
haha...tis tyme the ablum cost $23..
haha...plus limited posters...
haha...wee~~..

btw..i receive this msg not long ago..
the msg is a swiit msg..
this was sent by cherie...((:
if can i want to dedicate it to hym...((:
>we come to love not by finding a perfect person..
but by learning to love an imperfect person perfectly...
the spaces between your fingers were made so another person could fill them...
one day,
i caught myself smiling for no reason..
then i realise i was thinking bout you...
i dun think u realise how easily u make me smile...
but why am i afraid to lose you??..
when u're not even mine...
i swear i did rip out my heart...
if u say u would be impressed...
if can be...
i want to be the reason u smile....
p.s. i change the words a bit...((:

Super Junior latest music video... Its You.....
enjoy^_^

2009-04-17T20:31:00.004+08:00

during ss class..[last period]
hmm...
last day of the week...hehe...
haish...actually i've got nutting to write...
but as i'm feeling quite boring..
i decided to write sumthin...
hmm...
tis week has been a crazie week for me...
my god!!!!...
i cant believe myself either wad i've done tis week...
haish...
i simply cudnt believe it...
CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY WEEK!!!!!...
i'm going nuts with my thoughts!!!...
arh!!!...
its not the ryte tyme and yet...
MY GOODNESS!!!...
how cud i think tis way??..
WHY?????...
tis is seriously driving me nuts...
arh!!..
"i fell for him..."
ahhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~
HELP ME!!!..
the first person i told was Fai..
when she heard it...she laugh at me!!!..
hahahs...i told her..
"Fai i think i like ur "daddy"..."
MY GOD!!!!...
my godness...i cant believe this!!...
the second person to noe was...
sha...she was shocked for her whole life...
HAHA....she cudnt believe it...
she looked stunned...
i told her...
"sha guess wad??...i think i like Fai's "dad"..."
halfway..she stopped walking...
she was damn shocked..all i noe was because..
she thinks dat i still have feelings for "dat guy"..
but she doesnt noe dat i dun...
and now i didnt realise dat i would fall for Fai's "dad"...
i didnt realise it at all...
until recently...
haish...
I'M TOTALLY GOING NUTS WITH MY CRAZY THOUGHTS...
i cant believe this...
gosh.....

***everyday,everynight..i'm beginning to think bout u more...
and i cant stop...
u change me unknowingly which i myself dunno either..
u make me feel myself again...
and slowly curing my hart from the last broken hart.........
i knew u wud never be....
and i darent think bout it...
it was just a wishful thinking of mine...
although i'm not sure bout my feeling for u...
but i felt dat u were my one and only....
but...
it wont happen...
for all we both noe.....
WE ARE WORLDS APART...***

i'm scared to love again...
i'm scared of the history repeating itself again....
and now...
i'm scared to love "him"...
i didnt want to end up like last tyme...
i didnt wan to wait...
its tiring...really tiring...
yeah..i'm a coward...
all because i dun wan to end up like last tyme...
"...one sided love..."

2009-03-22T14:45:00.003+08:00

hehe...my new look...lols..((:

hey!!!
hahahas...
got nutting better to do these few daes...
hehes...
anw todae i'm posting sumthing coz...
i've sumthing to show!!..
hahahas...
siti..siti...u're showing off...
HAHAH!!!..
anw...i've got my long n awaiting SUPER JUNIOR 3RD ALBUM!!!..
WOOOOOHOOOOO...
hhaha...
sooo happie man...
hahahas...
i went to tanjong pagar with sha to take the album...
hahah...
sha thanks a lot of accompanying me there..
really grateful to ya...
((:
u're my sis 4eva girl...
((:
anyway when i got the things...
it comes with a poster...
hehehs..
huge poster..
hahahs...

anw...i've cut my hair...
hahahs..
at last..
hehehs...
trim and shorten up my frinch a bit...
hehehs...((:

2009-03-13T18:26:00.007+08:00

annyeong!!!...
hehe...long tyme neva post liao...
heheh...
school holiday begins now!!...
but too bad...it isnt an holiday period fer miie...):
HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL LARR SEII!!!!...
gosh...haish...a holiday was meant to rest but not for me..
heheh...i still have a long way to goo....
need to buck up on physics,chem,dnt,maths n ss/history...
haish...I WANT TO PASS MY 'N'!!!!!!!...
BUCK UP BUCK UP...
hehe...

anyways..SUPER JUNIOR IS BACK!!!!!...
hahah...after a year and a half....
i guess...if i'm wrong dun scold miie aites...
anw..i'm soo in love with their songs!!!...
so nice!!!!...
urgh!!!...
SUPER JUNIOR슈퍼주니어 3RD ALBUM-SORRY SORRY

SORRY-SORRY!!!!...
fyi...ryeowook is standing in the last 3..((:

너무 귀여워!!!!!...
hahahas...he's so short among the rest...
but nvm...i still love hym!!!!..

their 3rd album consist of 12 songs...
1.쏘리 쏘리 [Sorry-Sorry]
2.니가 좋은 이유 [Why I Like You]
3.마주치지 말자 [Let's Not..]
4. 앤젤라 [Angela]
5.Reset
6.Monster
7.What If
8.이별… 넌 쉽니 (Earthquake)[Feat DBSK U-Know & Micky]
9.Club No 1 [Feat Lee YeonHee
10.Happy Together
11.죽어있는 것Dead At Heart
12.Shining Star

omg!!...my favourites among the songs are,
>>What If...the song soooo swiiit!!!...cant stop listening to it..
felt like crying when listen...
wit powerful vocals of ryeowook,kyuhyun&yesung...((:
>>Why I Like You...another swiit song...awww...
wit powerful vocals of ryeowook,kyuhyun&yesung...
>>Sorry-Sorry...very catchy song...hehe..but nice...((:

anw...oll the songs are good and nice...((:
cant comment too much!!..((:
as long it is nice..i will listen to it...((:
ouh ya...
i did order their album!!!((:
hahas...
yeah i'm crazy enuf to order their album...
hahahas...
i order it thru coolktime..((:
and guess wad..
it for $21 with limited posters!!!...
WOW!!!...
worth it ok!!...
hahahas...sooo happie..
cant waet to get it..((:
i'm going nuts already...hehes...

anw...tis is oll i'm gonna say...((:
going to skool on the 17,19 & 20 March!!...
can die liao...haish...
((:

2009-03-04T18:30:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry to the ppl who cant read korean...really2 sorie..i had to put this in korean coz it expresses my real feelings..((: sorry peeps..(:

지난 세월 동안의 당신에 대한 내 사랑을 허비 왜냐하면 난 당신을 포기하는 결정을 할 때 나는 이미 지난 몇 년 동안 당신이 사랑하는 사람과 함께 같은 날 .. 떨어지지 않을 것이란 것을 안다면, 최초의 중국 떠났네요가 내가 너무 사랑했던 남자 친구가 있지만 결국 난 내 친구의 이익을 위해 포기하고 .. 정말 아프지만, 난 당신을 위해 최선을 다하겠습니다 .. 제가 제와 내 사랑을 잊지 때까지 계속 시도합니다했다 결국 당신을 잊지 일일 ..
this are my hart felt words which has been kept for a long tyme...it is just simply to difficult for me to express it..so i'm sorry if u guys cant understand..
정말 죄송합니다

비록 내가 너무 어리다고 나를 위해 운명을 이해하는 사람이 누구시기에 올 때 내가 너무나하지만 내가 아는 사랑을 끌지 않기 위해, 나를 위해 올바른 사람이 나타납니다 .., 제가이 일을 한 번 사랑을 경험하고 싶어요 는 이해하기 어렵다 .. 내 인생,하지만 대부분의 여자는 괜찮지만 .. 경험 그냥 나한테 뭘 원하지만, 다른 여자도 .. haish ..
어쨌든 지금은없는 시간이 사랑에 대해 생각하고, 난 여전히 갈 길이 멀다 ... 만약 내가하고 싶은 일을 ...(: 내 공부를 마무리 할 수있다

anyways,
i have to buck up on my coursework!!!!!!!!!..
still lagging behind larr seii...!!!...
OMG!!!!
ok this is oll i'll be saying!!!
((:

2009-01-28T21:29:00.005+08:00

annyeong!!!.
hahahas..
back to posting!!!..
hahahas...
anyways...been busy with these and dat
and got no tyme for com..
hmm...
its boring for these few daes..
with nuttin to do except racking my brain for ideas...
haish...
wah these yr 'O' & 'N' level sia...
arh!!...going crazy liao...
haish...
anywaes,i've bought a new shoe!!!!!!.
my dream shoe which i've been eyeing for a loooong timmeee....
at last i've got it!!!!.
wah...i bankrupt already lor...
hahahas....
gosh the shoe dat i bought was quite SIMILAR to.......
[i didnt sae dat it was the same but similar]
KIM RYEOWOOK'S SHOE!!!!!!...
but ryeowook oppa's one is the high cut while mine is low....
arh crazy liao...
but mine is low cut...
anyways it does sell the high cut one but its only fer boys!!!...
damn!!!..the high cut was damn nice!!!!!!.
it comes in black and gold...
i want it badly!!!!!!
but imagine if i were to wear it....
WOW IT LOOKS WEIRD!!!!!
hahahas....lols...
gosh i'm really going crazy with oll dese...
my my my my my......
i want KIM RYEOWOOK OPPA!!!!!..
LOLS...((:

I LOVE KIM RYEOWOOK OPPA!!!!!
&
I LOVE CHO KYUHYUN OPPA!!!!!

2009-01-15T17:30:00.003+08:00

(cheesecake with fruits!!♥♥♥)

(chocolate ice cheese tarts!!!♥♥♥♥)

(ice cheese tarts!!!♥♥♥♥)

(me!!!♥♥)

heyy!!!..
sorie peeps dat i didnt update for quite a long tyme...
totally sorie!!..
the reason i didnt post is dat...
i've got nuttin to write!!..
hahas..
anw..on mon,12/1/09,
i've got the theme for dnt coursework..
STRESS!!!!..
hahas...do dat do dis..wad de...
haish...had to complete the mindmap,research and stuff...
haish..tiring werk...
but anw i had to werk hard to pass my 'n' to go to sec 5..
haish..
but the thing is,i need to pass my maths in order to go to sec 5!!!..
my maths totally sucks!!!..
haha...
haish..tis year totally cannot afford to lag..haish...
hmm...theres nuttin for me to write actually..
ouh ya... i didnt manage to get to the first team for the netball west zone
tis yr..hahas..nvm...
ever since i was in sec 1 until i was in sec 3,i always get chosen..
but surprisingly,
tis yr i didnt get chosen!!..
haha...yes!!!..at last...lols..

KIM RYEOWOOK IS LOVED BY MIIE!!!..♥♥♥♥♥♥

2008-11-18T12:29:00.002+08:00

its been 1 month since i last post anything...
sowie bout dat...
hmm...i didnt update coz i've got nuttin to write about...
hmm..i write sumthing todae,bcoz,
i dun wan my blog to be dead..lol.
hmm..ok...holidae has started..long tyme ago..
and have been staying at home...
SO BORED!!!.
i've got nuttin to do except sitting infront of the com...
from morning till noon...
seriously the electric bills is going to burst!!!.
hahas...anw...sit infront of the com only watch sum korea
and chinese drama...dats oll...
but still its boring...nuttin to fill my boredom...haish..
hmmm...
lots of things happened in jus a second...
jus last week,on tues,11 nov 2008...
2 bad news came to me...
i was really shocked when i heard the news...
haish..
one news is dat,my cousin which i called hym,paklong or atok,
he passed away in malaysia...
its hurts me totally...i wanted to cry but it cudnt come out......
its soo sad...after hearing the news,my mom hu jus came back from work,
quickly called my other cousin...den at nite,my mom and dad rushed to go
to malaysia with my other cousin...haish...
the last moment i saw hym was when i went to malaysia las yr...
dat was the last i saw of hym...
i really miss hym...
*atok hu is dearest to me,i really miss yoos...*:'(
den the second news came to me later at nite...
i was watching the tv when sha msg me...
she told me by the msg dat ernii meii wad involved in an accident...
i jus cudnt believe it...
for confirmation i called sha...
she sae its true...her sister told her...
over the phone...i was like..WTH???!!!!
cannnot be luh...but it was true..
on dat moment i was really on the verge to cry...my god!.
den on i thot to myself,y must oll this happen on the same dae??..
it sucks totally...i had one terrible blow from the first news and
den came the other...WTH!!!
haish...but seriously i'm really glad dat ernii meii is alrite now...
*meii recover fully worx!!..*
hmm...sad story on dat fateful tuesdae,11 nov 2008........
haish...
anw...jus glad dat ernii was fine from the accident...
hmm..i guess dat is about oll bout wad i'm going to sae...
ouh ya...to my adek wawa,hyun hee,be safe when u're in hong kong!!!
dun forget us while u're dere!!..
and aslo come back safely!!!(:

2008-10-04T11:29:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!..
hahas...lols.
i wish every muslim a selamat hari raye to them..
and to oll my frens,selamat hari raye maaf zahir dan batin.
hehe..n
maafkan la salah silap aku dan kalao aku kasar bahase ngan korang
ehk?...harap aku dimaafkan.
hahas...
anw i noe i post this a bit late...but wad to do??..
been busy these few daes...
with exams!!!...
arh!!!!...
yesterdae was eng n malay paper 1...hmm...quite stress..
haish...i hope to do well though!!.
haish...
on monday will be english n malay paper 2...
and follow on...
AH STRESS!!!!!...
come to think of it,
this year its like no hari raya for miie...
exams!!!..
hahas...lol
btw sorrie to shyda and yaya.
sorrie for declining ur invitation to go out yesterdae..
i had to go out wit my family...
shooo sorry...
next tyme perhaps okay??
hahas...
hmm...i think dat will be all..
hahas...
coz i've got nuttin to write on..
hahas...
anw,
selamat hari raya to every muslims n my frens,
and also,
good luck on ur eoy exams!!!...

2008-09-18T14:42:00.003+08:00

its been a long tyme since i last post anything..
hmmmmmmmm......
exam comin soon liao..
gotta study soon...
haish..
yesterdae,during training,
too tired liaos...
too tired until i had to break my fast..
wad to do?...tired leii...
but break fast didnt tell my mom...
hahas...bad girl...
lol
den todae,the whole dae at skool very sleepy..
hahas...
recess tyme at the hall wit top n seungri..
play sum games and we ended up crazie...
hahas...
got one of the dae..but it was tis week i think its on mon...
miie,top n seungri was sitting and we were talking
bout super junior and big bang...
i was crazie of super junior while top was crazie of big bang
n seungri was crazie of both...
hahas
and then,justine,eugene,andy and the rest were playing basketball
at the hall...and suddenly sumthin happen...
the basketball ball was like out of court when justine when to pick it up
when he wanted to pass it back,he threw
but when he threw the ball,
he accidently hit wawa,top.
gosh..and top was like...bending downwards and..
i was not sure whether she was crying or laughing...
haish...den justine was like saying sorry to wawa..
haish...aiyos...
anywae...actually theres nutting fer miie to sae anything...
hahas...i wrote sumthin cos..
sum ppl has been asking miie to update...
hahas...i won sae hu but theres sum1...
lol...ok thats all wad i'm going to sae..
hahas...

there's this guy,
i met hym in the lift of my blok.
he looks shoo cute.
but he's a bit shorter than miie.
i'm not trying to insult hym or sumthin,
but i jus find hym cute.
when we were in the lift alone,
it was awkward,
its just the word awkward,
hmm...i dunno if i shud call dat spark??..
hahas...
i dunno his name fer sure,
but i just noe dat he ish from,
yuhua sec,upper sec guy.
hahas.
we met fer quite a couple of tymes.
i wudnt deny it coz,
he stayys the same blok as miie!.
hmm...dat dear sum1,
i wish i cud noe euu...
but all the situation,
i jus feel dat it isnt jus the ryte tyme.
yeah..it ish jus isnt the ryte tyme...
hmm...and one more thing,
fer sure i really wanna get rid of tis guy hu has been stuck inside miie.
its been 2 half yrs.
its really tiring.
i wanna get rid of euu totally.
like it seems dat euu have been slowly dissappearing from my life.
which ish good.
hahas...anw,how i wish i cud noe hym but,
tyme isnt jus too ryte...

2008-08-20T20:18:00.015+08:00

i'm crazie over SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!...AH~~~~~..♥♥♥
seems like its been yrs since i last post anything...
sorrie..i didnt update...
i just felt lazt to type...dats all...
and summore busy studying...
haish...wad to do?...
stress with physics.....chem......maths......
ahhhhhhhhhh~~~~~....
i hardly had tyme fer myself...
haish...
ok fine...tok bout sumthin else...
actually in actual fact i've got nuttin to sae..
lol...
hmmm...sha's burfdae ish approaching and i've not prepared anything fer her yet...but soon i'll prepare sumthing...
hahas....dun worry sha...
euu gave miie a soft toy fer my burfdae which i won forget...
hahas...thanx a lotss dear...(:
sha's burfdae ish oso our one year anniversary...
hahas...happie one yr anniversary!!!..
i won forget the happie moments we had together...(:
its simply too precious to miie..(:
hmmm....i realise dat i'm slacking in my studies...
must jia you!!!....aja aja fighting!!..(:
hahas...
hmmm...seriously feeling shoo tired...
its been two daes since started fasting with fairuz[kibum](:
seriously tired...
but wad to do?...still have to endure it...
hahas....
haish...i'm feeling so bored...hahas... happie 1 yr to us...hope we will still b together 4ever♥

i will still love euu no matter wad.♥♥
but it doesnt matter or not whether euu will
notice miie or not.i will just love euu from afar.
dat will just be enuf fer miie.

KIM RYEOWOOK ROCKS!!!♥♥♥
LOVE YA BOY..♥♥♥
김려욱.love ya lots!!!♥♥♥
sarangheyo!!!..

SARANGHE OPPA!!!!♥♥♥
oll da best!!!!♥♥♥

u're my best gal ever!!!..
thamx fer being dere fer miie when i'm down!!...
love ya lots gal!!
oll da best fer ur study gal!!!.
love ya!♥♥
sarangheyo!!!..
continue to love KIM KIBUM!!♥♥♥

KIBUM OPPA!!!♥♥♥
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!♥♥♥

HYUN HEE!!!...
AKA WAWA.
hahas...
best known to be the korean lover..
hahas...no doubt bout it...
lol...sowie wawa..hehes.
anw...oll da best fer ur exams n everythin euu do!!.
aja aja fighting!!!♥♥♥

TOP OPPA!!!...♥♥♥
hahas...BIG BANG!!!.
ok...known to be wawa's idol.
hahas...sowie i dun have a better pic of hym...this ish oll i have...i have his best pic in my phone but i feel lazy to transfer it to the com...hahas...sowie dear.
aja aja fighting!!...oll da best BIG BANG!!!♥♥♥

sha...hahas...thanx fer being dere fer miie since sec 1.. i love euu shoo much...its been 3 yrs since we're together...nutthin cud seperate ush..♥♥♥
love ya darl!!...happie advanced burfdae!!!..hahas.
LEETEUK OPPA!!!!
hahas...sarangheyo!!
aja aja fighting!!!. oll
da best SUPER JUNIOR!!!!♥♥♥♥

2008-07-19T16:24:00.003+08:00

hmm...
wad i'm writing todae ish bout my trip to bb ite .
which ish,
on da first dae,
it was hell.
wad i meant by hell ish dat,
it was freaking boring!!!.
the presentation was like...
=.="
i almost fell asleep in the room.
some of my clazmate already fell asleep.
lol.
but after da presentation,we had a break,
after da break,
we did MAGIC.
which i dunno da full name for it.
again da presentation was boring,
but,
when the part we did da robotics,
woow.
its fun...
lol.
den first dae ended.
2nd dae,
half dae at dere.
but this tyme we did different thing,
not the MAGIC.
but its customer service.
quite ok luh...
hahas...
do da video..
ahahas...
funny,funny.
atiqah's grup ish da funniest...
hahas...
but my grup one ish like =.="
ok den the 2nd dae,ended.
next dae,
cross-country!.
wad da...
got fever,flu n sore throat..
but den still have to run...
poor thing ryte?
hahas...
but nvm luh...
i did my best n got the top 50 badge..
hahas...
first tyme leii..
oopps...the last 2 yrs didnt get anything.
hahas...
after event, go home with sha.
waited for the bus,but the bus ish shoo full.
dat we have to waet for quite a long tyme.
at last we took the bus but its still full,
still managed to get a sit..
reach boon lay,sha took 242 home,
while i walk home...
hahas...
tired leii..
at first wanted to take da bus but den at last wolk home..
hahas..silly.
ok la..at least house near jp wad..
lol.
ok larr..dats oll...

2008-07-08T15:23:00.005+08:00

miie and newborn niece.
tish ish a real snake.

miie n da berkat.lol

uhm..ok..
i'm back blogging.
lol...
long tyme never post liao.
ok..wad i'm gonna post ish bout how i spend my weekends.
lol...bout weekends oso wan tel.
haha...ok nonsense.
back to da story.
on saturdae,went to religious class @ je.
den went home.
after dat take shower,
den mit ernii meii at se7en eleven.
she's going to follow miie go stay @ my 5th bro's house.
coz on da next dae dere will be an event concerning my newborn niece.
i bcame an auntie IN STATUS wors...
lol.
ok...on da nite of sun which ish oso on sat,
spend our tyme do da berkat,which i dunno how to explain it in eng.too bad.
and altogether i was dead tired n went to bed at 2 am.
while ernii still have da mood to watch confession of a teenage drama queen
aiyos.
and at last she slept at 3am,maybe.
coz i dunno,i was asleep.
hahas.
ok den da next dae,
i received msg at 7am.
idiot i was sleeping n tish person msg miie.
it was my old fren whom i invited to help out @ my bro's house.
at last she n her fren bueh miie sia.
sae she still @ her aunt's house n stuff..
wadever larr ehk...
den her fren msg miie saying dat she cant come coz her sis in hospital.
again wadever larr...
at last no choice but to call up fairuz.
sowie fai,i had to wake euu up from ur sleep.sowie dear.
ok...she took a cab to bro's house n she doesnt nid to pay coz,
sis-in-law paying fer her..
good ryte?..
hahas...lol
ok...den da event start liao..
hahas...we help out and we were dead tired..
phew~~~.
but it was worth it coz..
we work fer da money..
hahas..
bro gave us $50 each..
wooohooo...
yeah babe..
hahas...lol....
ok dats bout oll...
n.
i do nuttin on mon..
hahas..(:

2008-07-03T17:06:00.003+08:00

hmm...seems lyke its been forever since i updated my blog.
lol..
dead liao.
sowie uhk guys.
i doesnt seem to have da mood to update it dats oll.
busy preparing fer my niece thingy..
if malay,euu will noe..
okie..criously i've really got nuttin to sae.
uhm...btw..to yaya..sowie dat i uploaded da photos so late.
sowie dear.
(:

"y am i afraid to lose euu when u're not even mine?"

dats da quwstion which always bothers miie.

y ish dat so?..even if i get da answer[da one dat happens few months ago],

i will still ask myself this.

why ish dat shoo?

i will waet fer euu,

even if it means waeting fer a thousand yrs.

but it depends if my love fer euu were to ever fade away............

which only god will noe..............

2008-06-03T11:05:00.006+08:00

hmm..

yesterdae was da class outing of 3S3,4&5.

which of a combination.

hahas.

supposingly,

yesterdae was supposed to be my eng class outing,

but den oll changed.

haish.

but den yesterdae,

fasha told miie dat our class outing will be @ sentosa.

hmm..ok lorr..

hahas...but it will be at da end of week of holidaes.

haish..

i'm not equally sure,

but it was wad he said.

hahas

ok lets get back to da topic.

hahas.

ok went to meet ateeqah at da interchange at 145

but certainly i was late.

hahas.but hey its only a few mins late ok.

as my house is near to jp.(:

so she wudnt mind.lolx

ok den we took da mrt to bedok.

took bus no 196 to ecp.

ok.we thought dat we were lost,

but we didnt

lols

ok we reach dere at about 4pm.

but dere was nobody except da chinese guys from my class n 3s3

haish.

dey were riding the bikes

ok.den me,ateeqah,rab,shyda,fanny & eliza

sit at one table toking n laughing,

like as if we got nuttin better to do.

yar,as it is,

we really got nutttin better to do.

ok at almost 5pm,

ateeqah has to go.

she's going to da kallang stadium to watch da soccer match.

ouhk lorr..

left miie alone dere.

haish.

boring sia.

den at around 530 den started fer many ppl to come

den only da bbq starts at 6.30

basket.

we were oll hungry sia

but some of us didnt even manage to eat some of da bbq foods.

haish.

ok lorr...miie,rab& shyda n afiatus fed up already,

WENT HOME LARR SEII.

aniwae we went home oso bcoz dat sum of us got sumtink to do at home.

hmm...we wok n wok den reach da bustop,

took da bus 16 to bedok.

n mrt.

den wok home

home swiiit home.

above are sum of da pics taken.

2008-06-02T09:15:00.007+08:00

♥♥LIVE & LOUD!!!!!!!♥♥

YEAH!!..

DA CLICK FIVE CONCERT!!!

WOOOHOOO!!!!

DA BEST CONCERT I'VE EVA BEEEN!!!

IT WAS TOTALLY AMUSING.

GOSH.

WIT OLL DA FANS SHOUTING HERE & DERE.

OH MY.

JUS AS WHEN DA CONCERT STARTS,

DA FANS STARTED SHOUTING.

HAHAS.

BUT IT WAS SUPPOSSED TO START AT 8,

BUT IT WAS DELAYED FER 15 MINS,

HAISH.BUT HAVE TO WAET.

OK.15 MINS UP.

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CURTAINS DOWN.

BOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

DA CLICK FIVE!!!!!

WOOH!.

YEAH,YEAH,WOWO,WOWO,

DADADADADA,HAPPY BIRTHDAE,

DA SONG IT IS.

HAHAS.

MY N BRO'S TICKET WAS DA FREE STANDING,

N OK WE STAND,

WOW..DERE'S A LOT OF PPL.

OK OURS WAS ONE OF DA FIRST FEW,

ON DA FRONT.

CLEARER VIEW OF DA HOT GUYS.♥

LOLS.

BUT WE STAND NEAR DA SPEAKER,

BOOOOMMM...OUR EARS,

HAHAS.

OK.PPL WERE SHOUTING BEN,KYLE,ETHAN I LOVE EUU!!!

HAHAS.

LOLX.

HEY I LOVE KYLE ONLY!!!

HAHAS.

KYLE I LOVE EUU!!!!♥♥♥

AHHHHH~~~~

OK LARR..DATS DA ROUGH THOUGHTS OF MINE,

NOW,ITS TYME FER DA PICS TO DO DA TOK,

HAHAS.

LOLX.

ITS BCOZ I LAZY TO TYPE.

HAHA.

OK.

HAPPIE HOLIDAES EVERYONE!♥

2008-05-28T08:19:00.002+08:00

short post todae,

coz,

i'm rsuhing to go to skool.

sorry but let da pics do da tok

it happens yesterdae,

coz,

we didnt celebrate on 26/5

ok.

i'm too rushing.

let da pics do da tok.

okies!

2008-05-26T15:18:00.006+08:00

happiie swiiit fifteen burfdae to miie!!!♥♥♥♥

hahas...lolx..

ok simply saed,

i've got nuttin to sae actually,

i didnt celebrate todae,

which i myself dunno y,

hahas.

but nvm,

i dun even mind though,

hmm,

just wanna sae a big thanx to those hu wish miie happiie burfdae,:>dey are,,,

>fairuz♥[precious sista,wished miie at 12.40am.]

>sha♥[precious sista.]

>joey♥[deardear darlink.]

>hock how♥[meii's kor kor.]

>ecaar♥[old fwen's mate.]

>sugar♥[dearly classmate.]

>marlyana♥[dearly fwen.]

>linh[finland fwen.]

>kasturi♥[netball junior.]

>shu hui♥[netball junior.]

>shiwen♥[dearly dearly mate.]

>ateeqah♥[dearly swiit dear.]

>yaya♥[dearly mate.]

to dose hu didnt wish miie,

i dun mind.

coz i'm not dat petty.

hahas.

kaes.

end here liao.

sha,
hope u land in s'pore safely!
miss ya lotts when euu when to bangkok few dae ago.
hope to see ya soon!!♥♥♥♥

present by sha,27/5

cuttieee.♥

thanx sha.

love yaw.♥♥♥♥

2008-05-23T17:20:00.003+08:00

woooohoooo!!!...

last dae of skool liao...

yeah..

hahahas...totally happie bout it..=]

hmm...gotten my result yesterdae...

uhm...dun wan sae much.

cannot sae oll pass,

cannot sae oll fail,

hahas...

ok larr..

get back bout todae's activity..

hmm...nuttin much to sae actually,

its jus dat,

its a bit memorable.

hahas.♥♥♥♥

wooohoooo!!!!..

i got memorable present from MR FASHA!!!!!!...

WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

THANX A LOT MR FASHA!!!...

its totally memorable.

hahas.

a mug wit a tigger bear..

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!!!.

yeah!!..

i totally love it larrs seiii!!!!.

hahas...

k larr...dats oll i'm sayin.

ouh by da wae,

jus wanna wish rabiatul

A HAPPIE 15TH BELATED BIRTHDAE!!!..

WISH YA A HAPPIE YEAR AHEAD!!!

HAAHAS..♥♥♥♥

hmm..ever since sha has went to thailand,

kinda of of missin her lotz..

take care when u're dere dear~~♥♥♥

miss ya lots!.

come back safely!

3 daes left fer miiez!!!!..

yeah...

cant waet sia..♥♥♥♥

2008-05-20T21:06:00.003+08:00

hmm...

back blogging todae,

actualy i dun not wish to post anithin todae,

but had to,

hahas.

ok basically todae,

as usual go skool,but very early,

which i dunno y oso,

but todae ifelt dat i was extremely early,

which many ppl sae ish not early..

aiya..forget it,...

ok todae,

after skool,went to atiqah house straight to find clothes fer date wit da movies.:)

hahas...lame.

okies...den after dat...i went home to find ,my clothes to oso go watch movie,

iron man.

da show was quite nice,overall

hahas...i da oni historian dere alone which make me feel leftout,

but not..

oll hu went dere were oll geog students in mr leong's class...

ok.

after movie went to go eat.

went up n down in jp

lyke a group of mad ppl.

hahas.

but nvm,

at last make decision to oll eat at kfc..

hahas...da boys wanted to but da family feast den not enuf i person.

den alex didi ask miie joined in..

ok lorr...he pay half fer miie and i paid oni $2??!!!...wah i sooo bad...

sorie ah didi...

but thanx a lotsssss....owe euu one didi...=]

okies i'm done tokin here,

let da pics do da tok..

okie???!!!

i missed my chance to see my newborn niece!!!.

jus bcoz of a few minutes late!!

arh!!.

wasted a lot sia...

oll my family members go leii...

oni miie n mom at home.

mom didnt go coz tired.

ok lorr...

wasted sia i didnt goo...

haish...

summore baby gurl leii!!...

wasted a lot!!!...

haish...

nvm,maybe next tyme i go see..=]

6 more daes[fer miie♥♥♥]

3 more daes[fer sha♥♥♥]

2 yrs still goin strong.[fer sha,miie n fai.♥♥♥♥]

we will neva b seperated.♥♥♥♥

woohooo..♥♥♥

2008-05-19T16:55:00.002+08:00

todae...nuttin much happen,
stay at home do nuttin,
not oll dae do nuttin larr...
got do housewerk,
part-tyme maid,
haha,
it happens coz my mom n dad,
went to malaysia,
oni left miie,kahirul kor n da-ge.
hahas..
todae wake up,
told da-ge to wash da clothes in da washin machine,
den i do da drying up clothes,
after that,
cook breakfast fer da-ge n miie,
oni not fer khairul kor,
coz early go library studyy wit fwens..
hahas..act studdy oni larr..
hahas...anw i dun care.
hmm...afternoon liao..
da-ge go out wit his fwens left miie alone at home...
hahas..waetin fer wad sia??...play com larrr..
hahas..after long hours of playing...
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooossshhhhiiiiittttttttttttttttttttttttttt....
laundry???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....still havent did finished!!......
die!!!....mom n dad comin home todae.....i die liao...
hahas...ok...
da-ge called home dat my 5th sis-in-law is giving birth todae...
woooo....auntie again lorrr...happie larr seii...
going 9 leii...dun play2 hor...
hahahas...
ok lorr dats oll fer todae...♥♥

frenship wit precious sha[goin 3 yrs liao.♥♥♥♥]

frenship wit precious fai[goin 2 yrs liao.♥♥♥♥]

da fwenship of da 3 of ush..[goin 2 yrs.♥♥♥♥♥]

I LOVE YA SHA N FAI!!!!!...NUTTIN CUD SEPERATE USH.♥♥♥♥♥

7 daes left.[fer miie♥♥♥]

4 daes left,[fer sha♥♥♥]

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥___________________♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2008-05-16T20:45:00.003+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥______________♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

hmm...actually i've got nutting to sae,

i will jus tok bout todae,

basically i will tok bout todae's netball interclass,

which we lose to 3v8 in da semi-finals,

haish...wad a luck..

at first we won against dem but as dey noe our tactic of playing,

dey won against us....haish...

if i have taken da penalty of shooting,

our class wud hav won seii,

but den..mdm vi sae no netball gurls...wad da...arh!!!

ok lorr...den let alvin[mole]take da shooting...

den at last,we lost!!!...

sad leii...

haish...but nvm,we did our very best to achieve 4th position...

hahas...tell ms neo dat.....

♥♥♥treat us canadian pizza!!!!!!!!!!♥♥♥

she den sae ok lorr...when we wan...

hahas..next week.

woooohoooooooooooo....pizza!!!!!...

a big big big big THANX to:>>

>>ernii meii♥♥♥[C,GK,GD]

>>shiwen lovee♥♥♥[WA,WD]

>>shyda♥♥♥[WA]

>>kenny♥♥♥[C]

>>rongtat♥♥♥[GK,GS]

>>alvin mole♥♥♥[GA,GD]

>>aizat chubbie♥♥♥[GD,GK]

>>arivin♥♥♥[C,GA,GD]

>>ateeqah dearly class coach♥♥♥

>>last but not least miie!!!♥♥♥[GS,GD,GK]

LOVE YA OLL!!!!♥♥♥♥

ouhk lorr...dats oll i'm sayin here...

nuttin to sae liao...

haha...

10 more daes to goo...[for miie]♥♥♥♥

woohooo!!!!..

7 more daes to go...[for sha]♥♥♥

take care when u're dere sha...

gonna miss ya a lotz...

but when u're dere,

dun forget us hor..

haha♥♥♥

2008-05-13T16:47:00.003+08:00

13 more daes to go..

woohoo!!!

simply cant waet!!!!

hahas♥♥

i dun wanna sae anithin..

i've got nuttin to sae...

click five concert here i come!!!♥

woohoo!!!..

thanx bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!♥♥

its ur first bdae present fer miie!!♥♥

haha♥

thanx a lotts!!!♥

tidak kesampaian cintaku padamu,

ku membawa harapan palsu,

memendami rahsiaku daripada mu,

dari kejauhan,

ku mendoakan bahawa kao bahagia,

tiada lagg duka,

daku rela mengundur diriku,

memastikan jika kao memahami niatku..

2008-05-06T17:42:00.003+08:00

haish..

long tyme neva post anithin..

busy wit exams,

sorrie..

heh♥

nuttin to sae actually...

dear mr ******,

if euu are referring to miie,

i noe how euu felt,

but,

forgive miie,

if,

i were to bring euu pressure,

i dun mean it,

but its jus dat..

i cant help it,

really soooorrriiee..

but i really felt dat euu are really doin it,

i may not b anythin to euu,

i noe da facts,

and,

i won even forget it,

now,

i'm trying to focus on my studies,

forget oll.

seriously,

i really,really hope dat,

euu cud find sum1 hu cud really,

treasure n luv euu,

i wish euu oll da best in everythin euu do...

even miie,

i'll try to forget bout,

everythin dats in my hart,

focusing on my studies and dats oll,

i won tink much.

tryin my best to forget euu,

even,

i've tried for 2 yrs.

now,

its totally over for miie.

[*goood luck dear~mr ******.....*

i hope dat euu will forget everything,

everythin dat linh told euu,

start afresh,

forget bout oll dose childish things..

i wish euu,

best of luck in everythin euu do..]

2008-05-01T18:59:00.005+08:00

tish ish incredibly tasty!!!..luv it..♥♥♥

woohoo..i won da game!!..i won wit high scores..=]♥♥♥♥

picnic on 1st may...♥♥♥

da pics will do da oll da tok..

ok?!..

hahas..♥♥

2008-04-28T17:26:00.003+08:00

i've got nuttin to sae..

between the 3 daes,

been thinking,

of really lettin euu go,

so i did,

hahas..nuttin fer miee to boast about,

da tot of lettin euu go,

really lighten my burden,

dat i hold fer almost 2 1/2 years,

haha.

gud thing to let euu go,

ok enuf of da tok,

jus let da pics do da tok,

haha

lame,

i noe.=]

jus a pictures of wad miie,saara n iqah took,

at sonja's house.=]

during my finland trip,

sorrie,

although its over,

its jus a momento.

haha

2008-04-24T17:38:00.003+08:00

basically,

i've got nuttin to sae,

nuttin to do,

after skool,

go for dnt afternoon lesson,

walao,

stupid teacher,

first she say got practical,

den,

next moment sae theory,

nonsense,

den during class,

ask meii fer foolscape den,

start to do sumthin,

nuttin betta to do mahx,

listen to teacher oso wan to slip liao,

haish,

after dnt,

go library and read book,

alone reading book wit no one,

disturbing miie,

haha..den dat brian go tag miie,

tag nonsense,

and oso dat stupid alvin[mole],

haha.

den at around 4.55,

go out of the library,

go home,

woohoo,but den,

didnt manage to read finish the book,

haish..wad a waste.

hmm..yesterdae,

after skool,

walk wit ernii go home,

bcoz she doesnt wan take the bus,

which i dun noe y,

haha,den wok go my house,

hoping to find sumthin in my com,

but her mom called her even b4 she cud do it,

omg,ernii bcame angry,

den ask miie send her home,

ok lorr..

switch off the com,

den go her house,

go her house,

sit watch tv,

den her mom come back home,

ok lorr.greet liao,

den i wan go home at around 5.30,

but her mom saes stays fer a while,

eat dinner wit dem,

ok stay,

eat spaggetti,

wow..it was superb,

haha..seriously,no kidding,

thanx soo much auntie.=]

after eating,go home,

ernii send miee to da bustop,

den board da bus,

den home sweet home,

hehe=]

ok dats oll fer todae.=]

2008-04-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

Love can be so cold♥

Love can be so cold ♥

I think it's time that I told you the truth, yeah♥

'Cause it's on my mind♥

So let me do what I gotta do, yeah♥

'Cause it's someone else♥

So I can't see you no moreI can finally see my smile again♥

'Cause he's the one my heart beats for ♥

He makes me feel like I'm his number one, his prize♥

Tells me everyday I'm his everything♥

And I never got that from you (that from you)♥

So don't try to change my mind♥

'Cause I've had enough this time♥

And you always let me down♥

And now you can't turn your back around ♥

Ain't it cold♥

When the one you love lets you go♥

And you got no one to hold, yeah, yeah♥

That's the way you make me feel♥

Boy, it's coldOn the other side, yes I know♥

Now it's time to let you go, yeah, yeah♥

Love can be so cold ♥

The tables turned♥

And nothing stays the same, yeah♥

How we used to do♥

You know we don't do it that way♥

It's been so long♥

There's not much to say♥

The memory of you and me is gone♥

Today is a brand new day ♥

[chorus]

You should know that I forgive you♥

Boy I hope that you can move on♥

'Cause you said you'll be fine without me♥

But love gets tricky when you're all alone ♥

[chorus]x3

Love can be so cold♥

Ooh, whoa♥

Love can be so cold♥

Ooh, whoa♥

Love can be so cold♥

Ooh, whoa♥

2008-04-18T20:13:00.002+08:00

same as yesterdae,♥

todae after skool,♥

straight away went to jp,♥

wit ernii meii,♥

haha..go collect my pics,♥

haha,sit near the shop,♥

see the pics,♥

den wok around jp,♥

like as if got nuttin to do,♥

den after dat go my house,♥

change to my pe tshirt,♥

den go out,♥

go skool,♥

wah..i gud gurl sia,♥

come training so early,♥

but den,♥

sit at the library for almost 1 hr,♥

i was freazing to death!.♥

summore without wearing any jacket!.♥

omg.hahas.♥

i've got nuttin to say,♥

except dat i found sumthin which i was really pissed off by,♥

by dat gurl,♥

i trusted her ,♥

but i felt betrayed by her,♥

now i cant seem to trust anyone i like,♥

like i used to,♥

i wonder y ppl returned me by unkindness..♥

haish,i wonder why,♥

but i dun wish to continue to hurt myself more,♥

dat i owaes really imagined,♥

dat is,♥

to really,really let u go,♥

but sumtimes i really cant,♥

but i wished to,♥

i really dun wan to dragged it any longer,♥

coz i'm really tired of all dose waiting,♥

ernii meii told me not to give up, ♥

but meii,♥

i really hope to let him go,♥

i simply have to,♥

i cant stand all tiz,♥

even i cant take it,♥

let alone to let sha noe bout it,♥

i cant imagine how she wud react,♥

dire states,♥

haish,♥

give me a peace of ur mind,♥

whether to let u go,♥

but i felt i wan to,♥

but i noe its difficult,♥

but i'll try my best,♥

haish..♥

ernii meii,♥♥

i hope u will get the guy u want,♥

but i hope,♥

he will be,♥

the ryte wan fer euu..♥

have a sincere hart,♥

and euu will be able,♥

to love him oll ur hart,♥

meii,♥♥

i wish euu,♥

the best of luck,♥

even if,♥

i cant brighten up my own,♥

i noe,♥

i'll neva stand a chance..♥

meii..i hope euu will understand..♥

2008-04-17T18:55:00.004+08:00

basically i've got nuttin to write..=)♥

todae went to jp wit ernii to print my pics.♥

walk around to find diary wit locks but to no avail.♥

basket.haha♥

so i've got nuttin to write on.♥

i'm simply upset bcoz of sumthin dat bothers miee.♥

to dat sum1,♥

i'm sorry 4 wad happened on mon,14/4.♥

i didnt mean for all dat to happen.♥

i'm sorry for making u awkward in any wae.♥

forget it n simply ignore it.♥

if u were to feel upset in any wae,♥

i'm very sorrie.♥

i'm sorrie for not being able to tell u ryte face 2 face.♥

if u were to blame sum1 for yelling out,♥

jus blamed it on me,♥

coz i'm the cause of it.♥

but i'm really sorry for wad had happened.♥

i'm veri,veri sorrie.♥

*u turned a blind eye,♥

while,♥

i turned an unseen back.*♥

2008-04-10T17:04:00.001+08:00

me n fairuz outside the library...waiting for the enrichment to start...

uhm...long time neva post liao...hahas...actually oni a few daes..hahas...bz wit skool and stuff... summore exams comin lerr...wad to do ryte?...hahas...hmm...yesterdae was like okok...haha but during the enrichment,was like a bit boring but the speaker was trying his best to entertain himself in front of us to make the programme more interesting...but so far ok lorr...haha...and during dat time oso, we got a play role to do...hahas...funniest part..hahas...ernii was like all the way toking nonsense things and the whole grup was like laughing all the wae...hahas...she oso drag ice nemesis into the grup...walao!!...ernii are u trying to sabo me or wad?...omg...but ok larr...no probelm but when she was trying to put us into our roles...wah..ice nemesis was partner with his gd fren but den both of dem protested!!!...walao...den ernii put me and him...wah...i protested...at last vyennus and esther bcome the couples..hahs...sorrie n thanx to dem!...hahas...but the whole role play was like ok but it was so funny... hahas...seems like i cant stop laughing...hahas...finished enrichment den saw vinh...go home with him...hahas...eii...not couples huh..hahs..although ppl owaes sae so...basket...but nvm...lesson to dat person!...hmph!...den go home...watch tv..hahas...gosh!!...forget to study for history test!!...wah... todae rushing...but not when i wan go skool larr...but when i wan to study for my history test!!...den at last during physics lesson got the time to study for it...notti...physics lesson ppl study physics but i study history...hahas...lame...i noe...uhm..but den during english lesson oso can study...thanx arh fasha for giving us another 10 or 15 mins to do our own things...so wad am i waiting for?...study larr!!...hahas...den history time...test!...ok larr..managed to do all the question but wit worry...scared dat i might fail...but i relly did my best during the test...haish...den after skool got dnt extra lesson...wah i really dun feel like going...tired of seeing the teacher face...hahas...but nvm for the sake of my study..have to go wad...haish...hmm after dat go home with fifi take 99 den home... hmm..k larr.. got nuttin to write more...hehs..=)

2008-04-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

haish....todae so boring sia...as per normal...go for weekly religious class...haish...got exam!...gosh...i only study part of it...hahas...but nvm at least most of the question i got to ans it...hehe...hope dat i can pass well...=) haish...den after exam...go walk2 around dere...wad the...she den tell me dat she want to sell her phone...aiyoos...ok lorr...follow her sell her phone a bought a new one...from n73 to nokia 5610...walao...i told her dat she is so rich dat she can afford...hahahas...ila,if u are readin this...i'm sorry..hahas... ok larr joking only ehk...haha...boring sia...haish,...den ok lorr..i got nuttin to write liao...

thank eu for accepting me as a fren.=')

2008-04-04T20:00:00.001+08:00

haish...todae like hell sia...nuttin to do....fish...english lesson like wad oni....fasha like teaching us like as if we are in the primary skool....he siao ting tong larr...hahas...den summore got teo inside the class...den everybody start to bcome guai...lame sia... hahas...suddenly all started to listen to wad he is teaching...haha....summore daddy jun xiong say dat the class very cute...hahas...daddy,daddy...aiyoos...hahas...he behind hock how with the stupid phonetic banner playing...hahas...daddy nuttin to do wan...but den dat rasheed behind me like...shit sia...making noise non stop sia...feel like smacking his face sia...but den b4 lesson startwad dat rasheed tok bout dat guy den i told him not to tok bout him animore but this stupid rasheed still toking bout him den i started to get moody and was ready to blow my top...but den my kind daddy go ask him keep quiet and dat rasheed straight away keep quiet...hahas...rasheed sotong...haha.. thank u daddy...hahas...den go home at around 12.30 den eat at home den at around 2pm go out for training...wah...reach skool den got to noe dat training start at 4... bloody...who tell me training is at 2.30???....wad de... walaoweii...angry sia...if i noe i won come for training sia....arh!...den slack at the canteen with syahidah and the rest...wah...crazy sia...dere laugh non stop sia...haha...den dat idiotic vinh started to disturb me...wah...first he disturb my bag den run away wit it..wah kana chase by me...hahas...serve u rite vinh...hahas...den vyn n esther say.......toot... oi!!!!!... no larr... me and him a very good fren oni larr!!!!....not more den dat ok... sorrie arh...=) but many of dem say dat me n vinh like couples...F*** dem larr....nonsense... FRENS LARR DEII!!!!.. it doesnt mean dat we are close we are in a relationship okeyy...stupid ppl will oni think like dat...haha...k larr...enuf for todae...

i'm glad dat u treat me like a fren...=')

2008-04-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

hahas...its been days since i last post...hahas...wad to do ryte?...busy with skool and stuff....haish...todae my dae was really like.......................omg...i'm so angry with linh...arh!!!...she asked me for his email and den went to chat with him...my god!!!....i really cant blieve this...haish...really make my dae like .....arh! while chatting with him, she suddenly told me dat she told him...WTF!!!!...omg...i suddenly started to panic..my god...panic bcoz of wad?....bcoz of dat....wad the...i was like stunned...in front of the laptop i was like...............'_' " ....really confirm tis time i dunno how to face him...really...maner sak aku nak letak muker aku kalao aku nampak dier???...aku betol2 tak tahu maner aku nAK letak muker aku....malu nak mampos sak...WHERE AM I SUPPPOOSED TO HIDE MY FACE!!!!!!!...kimak!!!...den linh bilang aku yg biler dier dapat tahu,dier ketawe but den lost for words...pastu bilerr dier tak tahu aper nak cakap agik dier cakap ngan linh yg aku ngan dier cumer kawan jek...ok larr..tu aku accept larr...tap maner larr aku nak letak muker aku kalao aku nampak dier???....MANER????....WHERE????.....ish...sial larr...sakit kepale aku fikirkan tentang nie.....SAKIT!!!!!....sampai kepale aku nak burst into pieces...BURST!!!!....k larr...thats all for todae...i've got nuttin else to write on...haish....i wonder wad will hapen next............

2008-03-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

still not tolking to her...been few daes...arh...dun care liao ah...forget it..but still i won forget how n wad she told me dat very day..which i won forget...haish...todae such a boring da wit nuttin to do...supposingly i was inside my room the whole day watching tv...den i was boring cooping inside dat i came out...switch on the com...sign in to my msn i chatted wit saara only in a brief moment... sayang... da lamer tak jumper cumer dapat bobal sekejap jek..haish...aper nak uat kan??...haish... mendak sak dudok umah tak uat pape...semalam gik madrasah sorang pasal si kambing ader ngee ann orientation camp so dier tak datang...haish...biler da abez madrasah...gik merayap ngan ila...muler2 kat jurong east entertainment pastu kiter gik jp..jalan2 kat jp boleh jadik gilerk sak....si nabilah uat kecoh oll the way sak...hahas...ila2...giler larr kao...hahas...da tu at aroumd 6..abg kol aku suroh balik..ok larr balik...den balik tak uat pape...ngok tv sampai malam...haish...mendak...joona was online but i didnt chatted wit him coz i noe i will not reply me..so wads the point of chatting wit sumone who will not reply u ryte?...same goes to dat sum1...haish...i won waste my breath...haish...i will stop...aiya..really...wad a boring day todae is...I'M FREAKING BORED LARR SEII!!!!...arh!...k lar..i dun hav anythin to sae...mendak sak...arh!!!...

2008-03-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

me and joona!!!..i love ya lil bro!
julia,joona n me!!...miss dem!
miss n love ya lil bro!!!...=)
i miss this family a lott!!!

I BLINDLY DIDNT NOE U WERE TAKEN!!!...=(

how am i supposed to noe when or not u are taken??...i felt dat i was blind!!...BLIND~!!!..no one cud understand how i felt...when i got to noe,i felt like crying out but i forced myself not to...arh!...i felt that i'm stupid!!!...arh!!...no point...i saed...arh...

todae is like another boring dae for me...wake up at 9.15am and bro started to annoy me..ah!!...good...kena bastard by me!!...morning already kena scold like hell by me.. serve him ryte for annoying me...bastard dae!!...arh...den..coop myself inside the room for hours...den come out to eat...next one to annoy me is mom..tis time chill..say mother wad.. but to me she's really annoying like bro!...arh!...but luckily enuf i restrained from saying vulgarities...F***!!!...after eat,inside my room again..den tired of my room go along room.. watch recorded show den to the com...haha..the first thin i sign in to my msn is dat.......

I CHAT WIT JOONA!!!!..hahas...i told him dat i miss him and his family and his reply was dat...HE MISS ME TOO!!!!..hahas...i was freaking happie!!!...i tot dat he wudnt have miss me bcoz he is too obsessed wit his ice hockey..but den...ah!!...hahas..he miss me!!!...I LOVE U JOONA!!...(EHK..I ONLY TREAT HIM LIKE A LITTLE BRO HUH... DUN MISUNDERSTAND OK!!!)..i love ya!!...hahas...i totally miss their family...haish... the very first dae since i landed s'pore i now i wud feel bored..hahas...i noe i wud have stayed dere longer without comin back...if i were to come back,it is akin to me having to face bout relationship or family problems..haish..if i were in finland,i felt dat i was free..free from any troubles...haish...but really todae joona really brightened my dae up..but he went offline coz he went to eat breakfast...hahas...i miss ya joona...hahas..when i took off from tampere dat very 13 march,i told joona's sis,jenni dat i wud be gladly host any of the family members if they wud come to s'pore...seriously..she was glad..but she laugh wit a big smile and a ok..hahas..hmm..ok dats is all for todae..i'll put up my pics wit joona!..=) HAHA!..=)

2008-03-19T15:15:00.000+08:00

one of the dog,debby
me at the biggest shopping mall in tampere

jouko n me..=) he's hawt!
atiqah,sonja n me..ice skating! =)
with samya's fwen at Hesburger
me,sonja n atiqah..sletching..=)
one of the other dog in tampere,donny

2008-03-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

me at hotel in frankfurt,germany
the crazie freaks...haha=)
my adopted family in kaarina,finland
atiqah.sonja(my kaarina)host,n me!

hahas..at last i'm back in singapore..after a long stay in finland..hahas..i miss all my frens dere!...hahas..especially both of my hosts family...hahas..for the one in kaarina,i miss the mom's cooking!!...iranian cuisine...hahas..but for the one in tampere i miss the whole family plus the dogs!...hahas...the dogs that they have are damn cute!...hahas...but the one i totally miss is the brother,joona..hahas...he's hawt but den he is much younger than me...hahas...2 yrs younger...but he is totally hawt..to me n atiqah larr...hahas...but i dunnoe bout others opinion..hahas...i also miss the snow there...hahas...but when we went back here,the snow is already gone...hahas...dats why the students n teachers there sae that when we came there,the snow started to fall but when we werent there,the snow didnt fall at all...haha...i jus cudnt blieve it when i heard it...hahas...okok..my trip there is the most memorable on so i wont forget any of the events when i were there..=)hmm...i'm tired of typing the word so i'll end it here..hahas..if i'm free i'll write more.=)

2008-03-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

gosh...i'm having a great time here in finland...hahas....although its a bit cold,with snow, its great... hahas...i'm soon gonna have flu as soon as i come back to singapore...hahas...i'm getting used to the weather here in finland...though its cold...hahas...i cant put any pics coz i'm still in finland and i didnt bring any of my usb...hahas..but still i miss my family and frens...hahas...especially him...hahas...I MISS HIM A LOT!!...but at least i've tok to him one nite...hahas...i almost melt when i was toking to him on msn...i was so excited!..hahas...hmm...k larrs...gtg...i'm going for ice hokey match todae!...weeeeee...byez!