Saturday, May 1, 2010
yesterday was a worse,bad,bloody-bad day.....
Eyes swollen and voice became hoarse...
yesterday's incident........
if anything were to happen to her,
i might not be able to forgive myself.....
when she was crying in pain,i cant do anything except to cry....
i was so scared and panicked when she suddenly cry in pain...
as i watch her going into the ambulance,my tears kept rolling down my cheeks and
i find myself cant stop crying...
i then realise that i cant lose a best friend that has been with me for the last 5 yrs.....
i felt for instance that i have done great wrong to her....
being angry at her for stupid reasons....
being mean to her each time....
as i am writing this,my tears clogged inside my eyes ready to fall.....
i felt guilty because i have never been a very good friend and sister to her....
i wanted to thrashed everything out but there isnt anyone to become my listening ear...
as all this while,she has become my listening ear each time i face problems....
i cant imagine if i were to lose her.....
too distraught to say anything...
when my tears finally falls,
i kept recalling what happen...
i cant forget what had happen...
as even when i was listening to Super Junior Yesung-It has to be you....
tears kept rolling down my cheek...
totally heart-breaking......
teacher-Ms Eunice Lai and my friends...
kept consoling me...
it wasnt my fault...
but no matter what,
i have only myself to blame....
waking up the next morning[which is today.]
eyes really swollen after all those crying....
thinking back what i have dreamt of....
3 days in a row....
i dreamt of him.....
AGAIN.....
each time i didnt talk about him the whole day,
i find myself dreaming of him....
whats wrong with me??....
he could already have the girl that he likes....
but i keep finding myself having one sided feelings for him....
yesterday's incident........
if anything were to happen to her,
i might not be able to forgive myself.....
when she was crying in pain,i cant do anything except to cry....
i was so scared and panicked when she suddenly cry in pain...
as i watch her going into the ambulance,my tears kept rolling down my cheeks and
i find myself cant stop crying...
i then realise that i cant lose a best friend that has been with me for the last 5 yrs.....
i felt for instance that i have done great wrong to her....
being angry at her for stupid reasons....
being mean to her each time....
as i am writing this,my tears clogged inside my eyes ready to fall.....
i felt guilty because i have never been a very good friend and sister to her....
i wanted to thrashed everything out but there isnt anyone to become my listening ear...
as all this while,she has become my listening ear each time i face problems....
i cant imagine if i were to lose her.....
too distraught to say anything...
when my tears finally falls,
i kept recalling what happen...
i cant forget what had happen...
as even when i was listening to Super Junior Yesung-It has to be you....
tears kept rolling down my cheek...
totally heart-breaking......
teacher-Ms Eunice Lai and my friends...
kept consoling me...
it wasnt my fault...
but no matter what,
i have only myself to blame....
at last...........................
falling into deep sleep after crying in the day and night.....
waking up the next morning[which is today.]
eyes really swollen after all those crying....
thinking back what i have dreamt of....
3 days in a row....
i dreamt of him.....
AGAIN.....
each time i didnt talk about him the whole day,
i find myself dreaming of him....
whats wrong with me??....
he could already have the girl that he likes....
but i keep finding myself having one sided feelings for him....
i wanna thank our dear maths teacher Ms Eunice Lai,
my dear didi-Alex,
my dear wan si for lending me a shoulder to cry on,
and the rest who tried to console me yesterday....
thank you....
saranghae....
my dear didi-Alex,
my dear wan si for lending me a shoulder to cry on,
and the rest who tried to console me yesterday....
thank you....
saranghae....
giving up on you is impossible
8:58 AM
8:58 AM
